So last year I stopped making resolutions and just picked words to guide my year by and in the end I think I enjoyed my year so much more. So as 2012 ended (in a blur, like my years usually do) I didn’t feel disappointed that I didn’t accomplish what I had set as a goal at the beginning of the year. I didn’t have goals per say, I had words…Trust, Courage and Permission. And for the most part I followed those 3 words pretty well. I allowed myself the Courage to Trust God more in my day to day life and not worry so much about what the future held and I gave myself Permission to not worry when things were not working out the way I had hoped.
It was a long year, full of joy and in some cases heartaches. Each one of the moments that I had lead me to thinking what could possibly come next and by the end of the year I was not thinking about what was going on right then, but what would be coming next…the moment I figured out what I was doing was one of those ah ha moments you hear everyone talking about these days. I finally figured out why I was feeling rushed and stressed and why I wasn’t really feeling anything at all. I wasn’t allowing myself to be present in the moment I was in. I was thinking 2 steps ahead of where I was, and if you live that way long enough you begin to get burnt out.
So for this year my word is Present. To allow myself to be present in the moment that I am in and not worry about all the other things I could be doing instead. I need to focus on my relationships, my listening skills and me. Become attuned to how I am feeling in the moment and allow myself to be ok with the emotions (something I have never been very good at).
This year I will work at being in the moment. Living in the mess instead of around it. I will be focusing on these scriptures below to remind myself life is a series of moments and each one is preparing me for something better.
Matthew 6:34 (NIV)
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
2 Corinthians 4:17 (NLT)
17 For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!
This verse is something I struggle with far too often and forget way to frequently, but definitely something I need to be reminded of more often.